5.30PM: Second dialysis failed. Blood pressure dropping. He is losing the fight...
My earlier posting:
Bapak's kidneys have grown weaker and he needs another dialysis today.
This is not good news.
Yesterday afternoon, he was put on a dialysis because his kidneys were very weak.
Because Bapak had breathing difficulty, a tracheotomy was also done on him earlier yesterday.
(Tracheotomy is a surgical procedure to open up the windpipe.)
During the dialysis yesterday, we were told that Bapak was "tolerating well". And his heart remained okay.
We were hopeful.
It has been 12 days now.
Only twice were we hopeful. The first time was after being admitted, when the respirator was taken off him as well as the sedation as he appeared to be stronger.
The second was yesterday when he was "tolerating well" during the dialysis.
But, really. I don't know what we were hopeful for.
Wasn't Bapak already critical so please call our relatives, then he went downhill, and now on palliative care.
Deep inside, we all wish for a miracle....that he'll just open his eyes, sit up, rip those tubes out of his limbs, and just get out of that horrid hospital bed...
"Bawa aku balik...." I can just imagine him saying to us.
Oh....how we pray for his recovery. And now, for a miracle.
Miracles do happen, didn't someone say?
And if none happens, it is by His grace and His will..